"Do not be afraid; I am the first and the last, and the living one. I was dead, and see, I am alive forever and ever; and I have the keys of Death and of Hades. Now write what you have seen, what is, and what is to take place after this." Rev. 1:17-19.

Sunday, June 19, 2022

Pig Farmers

 

Before I offer a few thoughts, I’d like to introduce my friend Sophia.

Continuing as Sophia: We raise pigs for Rome. Nice, juicy sucklings; crunchy dried pork … all sent off regularly to provide meat for the Great City. My name is Sophia, and I live in Gerasa, a small village on the Sea of Galilee. On the other side of the lake from Palestine. I’m no Jew, mind you. My ancestors were Greeks, the greatest of all peoples, and I’m proud of my heritage. But these days, we’re just pig farmers. We’re trying to hold our own under the yoke of Roman rule, just like the Jews, just like everyone else, I guess.

Life is hard. We raise pigs, but we rarely get to eat them. Pork is the food of the gods. Pig blood is the highest sacrifice you can offer in our Temple. Now, though, pork is for the wealthy Romans. I hear that our pork a favorite for their extravagant banquets. They roast it, boil it, stuff it, carve it into fantastical shapes. My sons, who have to take the pigs up in the hills to scrounge for food, ask me why the Romans don’t raise their own pigs. Ha, I know why! Pigs are good to eat, but raising them stinks. They eat garbage, rotting corpses, refuse, all kinds of nastiness. The Romans don’t want pigs eating all the grass off of their hillsides and wallowing in the remaining dust. They don’t want them rooting around their latrines and garbage dumps. “Not in my backyard,” they say. “That’s what the provinces are for.”

 And yet they name their powerful armed legions after our pigs. Yes indeed. The Tenth Legion, the one that subdued the land of the Judeans across the lake, that legion has a big picture of a boar on its shield. That’s right—a pig—right in the place of honor. Pigs and powerful Roman soldiers, one and the same.[1]

          Speaking of the land of the Judeans …. Don’t get me started. They lorded it over us here in the Decapolis far too long, trying to get us to follow their religion and their laws.[2] The elders say that we didn’t get a moment’s peace from their critical, fanatical ways until the Romans took over. At least under the Romans we have a little autonomy. Everyone knows that Jews won’t go near pigs, let alone eat them. The Romans make jokes about it. I heard that the Emperor Augustus once said that he would rather be King Herod’s pig than one of his sons. Good one! That crazy Judean king was so paranoid and power-hungry that he murdered his own sons![3] The Judeans don’t have any right to look down their noses at us, but they do…

          I almost forgot: I’m here to tell you what happened here last week. You won’t believe it. My sons told me the story, though, so I know that it’s true. My boys were up in the hills overlooking the lake, watching the village pigs with all the other young boys. I don’t like them going up there, though, because of Erastus. Have you heard of him? He calls himself Legion now (shudder), but he used to be just little Erastus. His poor, wayward mother named him that—It means "Beloved.” She died when he was only six. Erastus never did fit in with the rest of us. Everyone whispers that his father was a Roman soldier who forced himself on his mother. (I think that’s why he started calling himself Legion.) When his mother died, Erastus made his own way in the world—a loner. Always rejected, always alone, stealing what he could to survive. I think he used to slop the pigs for a while. At fifteen, he was attacked and beaten by some other men for sport, and it was all too much for him. He lost his mind, and the demons came in. What a frightening thing he was. Dangerous! Biting and clawing like an animal, tearing off his clothes, living among the dead. We tried to keep him chained, thinking that containment would work, but the Evil inside him was too strong.

          As I was saying, last week, my boys said that a boatload of Judeans pulled onto the shore. Fishermen, probably. Legion saw them and charged at their leader in a fury, ready for battle. My boys thought the Judeans were goners. But this man wasn’t afraid of Legion. He paused and gently asked him his name. Then, do you know what this gentle man did? Unfazed, he sent those demons straight out of Erastus … and into our pigs! Yes, our pigs! The pigs went crazy then. They went charging off the cliff and drowned in the sea, squealing as they fell. All of them! All our livelihood—gone in the blink of an eye. Our debt to Rome—now one hundred-fold greater. When the boys came running home to tell me, I was furious. I charged up the hill to give this healer a piece of my mind, to take a piece of his flesh in return. Everyone in the whole village was doing the same thing.

          When I got there, huffing and puffing, I noticed the healer’s disciples laughing quietly among themselves. I wondered what could possibly be so funny about such a disaster.

“Ha!” I heard them say, slapping their sides, with big smiles on their faces. “Did you see those pigs? There went Caesar’s legions charging into the sea, just like the horses and chariots of Pharoah into the Red Sea. Who is like our Lord?”

They started to sway, full of joy. “Majestic in holiness, awesome in glory. He stretches out his right hand, and the earth swallows our enemies. May all Romans follow suit! It’s the dawning of God’s Kingdom! Freedom from Rome is coming—just wait and see!” Oh, how they grinned.

I didn’t understand them. How could there ever be freedom from Rome? I’m not sure I want freedom, anyway, whatever that means. I don’t want their god. I just want my pigs back. My eyes full of tears, I scanned the hillside looking for that healer. What I found made me stop in my tracks. That poor, demented Legion was gone. In his place was Erastus, the Beloved, sitting at the teacher’s feet, filled with peace, whole again. And the craziest part of this whole thing? Since then, Erastus stands tall at the gates of the village every day and talks about this Jewish teacher, this Jesus from Nazareth. He talks about healing. Erastus holds out his hand to all the people who shunned him before. He helps those who once beat and mocked him. And they are so amazed that they reach out in kind. How could such a thing be?

Rev. Anne back: When we read this Gospel at Bible Study this week, almost all of us—including me--said that we identified with the Gerasenes, with those losing their livelihood from Jesus’ action. None of us identified with Legion. Only one of us identified with the disciples, wondering at the power of God. Like my imagined Sophia, we are—more or less willingly—implicated in the powers that rule this world. Part of our despair these days, I think, is that we’re finally beginning to see the web in which we are caught. We see with our own eyes and in our own lives the death-dealing effects that modern carbon-based industry has on the environment. We see the death and terror that unbridled greed has brought to the gun industry, to the insurance industry. We watch our beloved democracy teeter on the edge of the cliff, ready to fall into the sea.

Episcopalian Diana Butler Bass writes of our Gospel story: “The naked man [Legion] leaps from the story, a shocking mirror showing the true condition of the oppression we all share under imperial power. He may be the immediate scapegoat for colonial domination, we may try to cast him out, but he runs from the graveyard and makes us see both him and ourselves.” Butler Bass wonders, too, what living under empire has done to us and to others. “Have we, suffering under today’s pyramid of wealth and power, been consigned to living among the dead … stripped of our humanity, wrought with madness? Watching the news, [she muses] it seems a fairly apt description of life in America today.”[4]

Perhaps God wants us to see Legion, to feel a connection to his pain—and to his healing. What today’s Gospel shows us and all the Sophia’s of our world, is that Jesus comes to restore our integrity, to make us whole once more. All of us. But he doesn’t start with the influential folks, or with the people who have it all figured out, or with those who lead orderly lives. He reaches out first to the least among us, to the most broken and tormented, and he calls them by their God-given name, “Beloved.” Clothing them in love, he hopes that we will see ourselves in their eyes. And that we will finally decide to take up our heavy crosses. That we will live out our baptismal covenant to renounce “the evil powers of this world which corrupt and destroy the creatures of God.” That we will follow him on the path of healing and wholeness, the path out of the tombs.



[1] Nelson Kraybill, “To Hell with the Pigs,” Holy Lands Peace Pilgrim, March 9, 2015. Found at https://peace-pilgrim.com/2015/03/09/to-hell-with-the-pigs/

[2] Ray Vander Laan, “A Far Country Decapolis,” That the World May Know. Found at https://www.thattheworldmayknow.com/a-far-country-decapolis.

[3] Mark Essig, “I Would Rather Be Herod’s Pig,” Longreads, October 14, 2015. Found at https://longreads.com/2015/10/14/i-would-rather-be-herods-pig-the-history-of-a-taboo/

[4] Diana Butler Bass, “Sunday Musings: The Demons of Empire.” Found at https://dianabutlerbass.substack.com/p/sunday-musings-834?utm_source=email.

Saturday, June 11, 2022

When We Can't Bear Any More

 

At the prayer service at the Cathedral yesterday, we listened to name after name being read. All of the names, dozens and dozens of them, were just a sampling of all the children and adults who have died in mass shootings in this country in the last twenty years. Several times the prayers had to stop, as we all waited for a reader to choke back tears. Outside the Cathedral, at the March for our Lives, Coloradans
of all ages stood in the blistering 100-degree sunshine to listen to teens and young adults testify about their terrifying experience of school shootings. Most people held up signs that expressed in no uncertain terms that they are fed up with the status quo. How much more can we bear? Indeed, gun violence, Covid, insurrection, war, fire, more gun violence, more Covid …. It seems like we are now closely touched by things that we never imagined dealing with twenty years ago. As suffering piles upon suffering, it’s hard not to let the news of it beat us down, as relentlessly as Saturday’s sun beat down on the protestors. How much more can we bear?

  I read years ago about an interesting scientific study concerning learned responses to suffering. Scientists put four monkeys in a cage with a pole in the middle. At the top of the pole, they hung a bunch of bananas. All of the monkeys learned how to climb up that pole and grab a treat. Then the scientists added a pail of water above the pole. When a monkey started to climb the pole, the researcher would douse him with a big bucketful of cold water before he could get to the bananas. Eventually, all four of the monkeys stopped trying to climb the pole, even after the scientists removed the pail of water. At this point, the scientists added a new monkey to the cage. This monkey, of course, went straight for those bananas. Can you guess what happened? One of the other monkeys would yank him down, every time, trying to save him from suffering from the cold water, even though there was no pail! As the scientists gradually replaced all of the monkeys with new ones, through several generations, even the new monkeys stopped trying to get the bananas. Those monkeys lost hope in reaching what they desired, and that lack of hope was passed down from generation to generation.[1]

Have the suffering and tragedy that surround us, the pain that pierces our own lives, taken away our desire to climb the pole? If we look around at our half-empty churches, at our general malaise and despair, it certainly seems that we have given up. When everything is so hard, why try? When children are dying, who cares about a committee meeting? When our lives and our country are so fractured, who wants to get up on a Sunday morning and sit in a pew? When there are so many problems begging for solutions, do we really want to hear a sermon on the Trinity? Has suffering robbed us of the hope that once led us to God? Are we gulping air, longing for a Feast that we have forgotten how to find? Kevin Ford draws a conclusion for us Christians in the church from the monkey experiment. Ford writes, “We preach and teach about bananas [that is, about hope, about God’s love for us, about Good News.] We cast a vision for eating bananas. We develop pole-climbing training programs … We read lots of books about bananas… We argue over which side of the pole the bananas should be on…But no matter what we do, nobody ever seems to get around to eating the bananas.”[2]

          Let’s see today if our readings can help us bite into any bananas. At first, St. Paul doesn’t seem helpful at all. In his letter to the Christians in Rome, Paul advises us to “boast” or to “rejoice” in our suffering: “We … boast in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not disappoint us, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit.” Hmmmm. Really, Paul? Would I write a letter to Marshall Fire survivors and tell them to be happy that their homes are destroyed and their finances ruined? Would I tell the parents of children in Uvalde that they have been given a test of endurance that will give them character?

          No, St. Paul, I wouldn’t say these things. But neither does Paul, really. Paul isn’t expressing some simple formula for mixing hope out of the ingredients of suffering. He isn’t offering us a mathematical equation to get to the bananas. Paul is like the theologians who try to describe God as Trinity. He is trying to express the inexpressible. Hope, for Paul, is a way of perceiving events based on a faith in God’s hidden presence and power among us. Hope isn’t wishful thinking. It’s what allows us to move into the future because of the reality of God’s presence right now.[3] As Paul writes later in his letter, using another image: “I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor rulers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.”[4] Paul’s own personal experience has convinced him that God climbs the pole with us, even when the water comes crashing down on our heads.

          I was struck by Jesus’ words, too, in today’s Gospel. Jesus’ disciples, when confronted with the reality of his approaching crucifixion, can also bear no more. The death of their Lord is unacceptable, a crushing blow to their faith. Yet Jesus doesn’t roll his eyes or shake his finger at them for their lack of fortitude and comprehension. Jesus understands them. “I still have many things to say to you, but you cannot bear them now,” Jesus tenderly offers. One scholar explains that Jesus “didn’t burden their frightened, skittish, saturated souls … Instead, he promised them the Holy Spirit, the Spirit of truth, the Spirit of ongoing revelation.  That Spirit would slowly guide the disciples — and by extension, all of us — into a fuller knowledge and comprehension of everything Jesus left unsaid.”[5] I think that we, too, can relax into the loving arms of a God who understands, a Triune God who is relationship. We can rest our weary minds and bodies, taking the food that God gives us, the food of his own body and blood, a food sweeter than the ripest banana.

          Last but not least, I think that it is helpful to remember the Wisdom of Wisdom herself. In today’s reading from Proverbs, God’s Wisdom speaks in a voice that we Christians identify with the Holy Spirit, even with Christ himself. Verses 29-31 can also be translated, “I was [God’s] delight day by day, playing before him in every moment, playing in his inhabited world, my delighting in the offspring of [humankind.]” Yes, God is at play with God, at play with Creation! God delights in the mutuality of play. Play holds “Creator and creation together, through the common bond of delight.”[6] When we can bear no more sadness, can we open our hearts in wonder to a God who plays? When we had evacuated our house during the Marshall Fire, we took refuge with my daughter’s family in Denver. Playing with my toddler granddaughter did more to free me from stress than anything else.  I wonder what would it be like to let God approach me in the same way?

We’re in a relationship with a God who can withstand anything, including our own despair. We aren’t monkeys, doomed to unthinking conditioning from our environment. We have a choice, a choice to seek a relationship with God, who will train us once again to take and eat the food that fulfills. We can find solace in crying out to God in anger, resentment, or pain. We can choose to invest in practices of prayer and gratitude and even holy play. Will our choices look like foolishness in the eyes of the world, like gullibility in the eyes of the unbeliever? Undoubtedly. But what will we not give to taste the Love for which we long? God in Christ gave His very life for that Love. When despair beats you down into the pavement like a hot summer sun, melt into the dance of mutual delight that is our Triune God. Play, rest, and feast with Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.



[1] Quoted in L. Gregory Jones, “Monkey Business,” in The Christian Century, September 9, 2008, 39.

[2] Ibid.

[3] Luke Timothy Johnson, Reading Romans (Macon, GA: Smyth and Helwys, 2001), 85.

[4] Romans 8:38.

[5] Debie Thomas, “The Trinity—So What?” https://www.journeywithjesus.net/essays/2251-the-trinity-so-what

[6] William Brown, Wisdom’s Wonder: Character, Creation, and Crisis in the Bible’s Wisdom Literature, (Grand Rapids:  William B. Eerdmans. 2014), 51.