"Do not be afraid; I am the first and the last, and the living one. I was dead, and see, I am alive forever and ever; and I have the keys of Death and of Hades. Now write what you have seen, what is, and what is to take place after this." Rev. 1:17-19.

Saturday, May 28, 2022

Thoughts, Prayers, and Anger

 

What a hard week this has been, after yet another tragic act of gun violence, this time in Uvalde. I am so weary of preaching after mass-shootings. In my fourteen years of ordained ministry, I remember them all with a stab of pain. I imagine that you, too, are angry and sad and oh so frustrated. “It can’t go on like this,” our hearts scream, broken open once again. And yet it does go on, over and over, as we seem unable—or unwilling—to take action. Yes, we pray for the victims; we pray for our leaders; we even pray for the perpetrators. Still, we wonder: “God, are you even listening to our prayers?!” Then we get angry. Angry at ourselves. Angry at our government. Angry at God. Angry at one another. My daughter said that I should title my sermon, “Thoughts, Prayers, and Anger.” Anger at injustice and oppression can be good. The psalms and the prophets are full of lament and righteous anger. Anger can spur us on to action. I know that some of us here today have already written senators and representatives; we have given money to organizations trying to create change. I’m hoping that some of you will join me on June 11 at the March for Our Lives protest in Denver.

But what else can we do? How can we find freedom from this violence? How can we find healing for our nation? Well, if we look at our lesson from Acts, maybe we should be singing?

          Look at Paul and Silas, singing their hearts out in their prison cell. Isn’t that a strange reaction to captivity? Their singing gets the attention of the whole prison. The other prisoners listen to their song, and I imagine that some of them join in, as well. All of that mighty singing then ends up in an earthquake—an earthquake that throws the prison doors wide open, like an opera singer shattering a glass with her powerful voice! Paul and Silas sing their way to a freedom that breaks down prison walls. They sing their way to a freedom that is so powerful that they don’t even need to leave the prison in order to experience it. Their freedom songs bring even the Roman jailor to their cause, freeing him, too, from his burdensome role as their oppressor.

What is it about singing, I wonder? Scientific studies have shown that singing together as a choir syncs our breath and our hearts.[1] Not only do we breathe together, our hearts start beating together—fast or slow, depending on the music! Our voices, which can be kind of puny on their own, gain strength from the voices of others. The vibrations of other voices fill our entire bodies. Song truly links individuals together as one. A few years ago, I went down to Sewanee to a college choir reunion. There were over 200 singers there in the school chapel that Sunday morning. Some of you might know that my own singing voice is pretty weak and trembly. But when I joined my little voice with the voices of those alums of all ages, with people who came together for that one service from all across the country, it was like a miracle. My tiny voice came out of my private soul and blended somewhere in the air above me with the voices and the faith and the strength of others, and it came back to my ears with the power of an earthquake. The other singers were somehow in me, and I was in them, and we were all One in God. It was just like Jesus described in today’s Gospel! Alone, we might be weak and trembly, yet together, together in God, we can’t be stopped. Yes, maybe we should be singing!

In the 17th and 18th centuries in France, Protestants did a lot of singing. It was against the law not to follow the Roman Catholicism of the King. People who were caught in secret Protestant worship services or caught with a bible in their homes were thrown into prison until they signed a document saying that they would give up their religious beliefs. The men were sent off to row the king’s ships, or galleys. They were chained six to a bench on rickety wooden ships and commanded to row across the oceans. They ate, slept, and rowed while chained to one another and to these benches, until they died. As for women and children, they spent their lives in a stone prison tower in the middle of a swamp, away from their families, surrounded by strangers. They slept on dirty straw and shivered with malaria and disease.

In order to keep from going crazy in their imprisonment, and in order to stay strong in their faith, these men, women and children sang together. All the time. Without any musical accompaniment, they sang to God using the words of the Psalms, blending the rich harmonies of their different voices. Like Paul and Silas, they sang songs of lament and even of praise to God, day after day, hour after hour. Memorizing the words together. Internalizing the prayers. And it was their singing that sustained them.

The man that I’m studying for my thesis, Elias Neau, sang as he rowed as a galley slave, even after he was beaten and ordered to stop. He kept singing, encouraging others, so much so that the authorities took him off the ship and put him in prison in Marseilles. He kept singing, and other prisoners joined in. So they put him in an isolated tower. He kept singing, and it drove the guards wild. So they moved him again and put him in a subterranean hole, without light, for years at a time. He kept on singing, alone in the dark. Singing his heart out to God. He survived, and eventually was freed. He went back to New York and taught enslaved Africans to sing God’s songs.

In his book, My Grandmother’s Hands—a book that some of us read together last year, the author Resmaa Menakem teaches us the power of humming and rhythm in overcoming trauma.[2] He recalls his black grandmother humming every day as she prepared meals in the kitchen. He explains that African Americans have learned to hum, sing, and play drums to settle their bodies and blunt the effects of racialized trauma. Physiologically, scientists now know that humming and rhythmic singing calms the vagus nerve, the long nerve that runs through our bodies from our brains to our guts and powerfully affects our well-being.

Many of us might remember the role that singing together played in the Civil Rights movement of the 1960’s. Protestors would sing “freedom songs” in their meetings, on the streets, and in jail cells. Once during the Mississippi Freedom Rides, imprisoned activists in Parchman Penitentiary sang together like Paul and Silas. Annoyed, the guards threatened to take away their mattresses if they didn’t shut up. So the protestors changed the words to their well-known hymns and started singing: "You can take my mattress, you can take my mattress, oh yeah, you can take my mattress … I'll keep my freedom, oh yeah..."[3] The guards’ threats immediately lost their power.

 Listen to the words of Bernice Reagon as she explains what happened when the freedom riders sang together:

There were always songs that celebrated those times when we came together even in the midst of danger … we were bonded to each other, not because we went to school together, or were in the same social club… but because we had decided that we would put everything on the line to fight racism in our community…We had to decide to leave the safety of being obedient to segregation to go to a place where we might lose everything we had. [In singing] we found in this new place a fellowship that we could not have imagined before we decided to stand.”[4]

Very different individuals came together and became One in song, One in the love of God, One for sharing the love and freedom of God. One, just like Jesus prayed for us.

Today, we aren’t in prison. We have power to act, to make changes to our lives, to our system. We have Jesus holding us in love with every breath that we take; we have the strength of the Holy Spirit spurring us on. So why do I feel like I’m one of those parents standing outside Robb Elementary in Uvalde?  While my children are locked in a classroom with a shooter, frantically calling 911, I’m standing there frozen, watching in horror from the sidelines. As we struggle to find freedom from our paralysis, perhaps we could sing together as we strive? Perhaps the God-given power of song could release whatever holds us back? Perhaps we should hum Christ’s peace into our own broken hearts? Perhaps we should show the world our strength through voices joined together in song out in the community. Let’s start today by joining in the song printed on the handout. We’ll sing the first verse, hum a verse to soothe our souls, and then sing the last verse. This last verse was added in 1950 and turned this hymn into a popular protest song of the 1960’s, made famous by Pete Seeger.

1.      My life flows on in endless song,
above earth's lamentation.
I hear the clear, though far off hymn
that hails a new creation.
Refrain:
No storm can shake my inmost calm
while to that Rock I'm clinging.
Since love is Lord of heaven and earth,
how can I keep from singing?

2.      HUM a verse and refrain

3.       When tyrants tremble, sick with fear,
   And hear their death-knell ringing,
  When friends rejoice both far and near,
   How can I keep from singing?
  In prison cell and dungeon vile,
   Our thoughts to them go winging;
  When friends by shame are undefiled,
   How can I keep from singing?
[5]



[1] http://ideas.time.com/2013/08/16/singing-changes-your-brain/

[2] Resmaa Menakem, My Grandmother’s Hands: Racialized Trauma and the Pathway to Mending our Hearts and Bodies (Las Vegas: Central Recovery Press, 2017), 56.

[3] http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/amex/eyesontheprize/reflect/r03_music.html

[4] Ibid.

[5] https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/How_Can_I_Keep_from_Singing%3F

Saturday, May 14, 2022

What We Need is Here

 

          It was wonderful being on vacation for ten days—away from the constant news of war, shootings, and our country’s deep woes, away from work and responsibilities. Two nights ago, though, the carefree bubble burst as we started chatting with another couple at our Bed and Breakfast. As usual the conversation led into deep and weighty topics, into worries about the future of a world that seems to be coming apart at the seams. On learning that I’m a priest, our fellow-guest Felix leaned over to me with a deeply earnest expression on his face. “You’re a person of faith,” he began. “Give me some hope for the future. I need to find something to keep me going, with all the turmoil in our world. How does a thoughtful Christian stay hopeful when it looks like everything is falling apart?” he asked, like a thirsty man begging for water.

          I wish I could say that I gave him a helpful answer, but I didn’t. I could say that my brain was fried from too much time in the hot springs that afternoon. But the hard truth is that we Christians are struggling to maintain hope these days, too—myself included. I mumbled something about God being with us in times of trouble. I said that Christians know that all will be made right in the end; we just don’t know when that will be. While not wrong, my answer sounded so weak, so much like wishful thinking rather than hope. I know that I didn’t really help our new friend in his pain. He graciously changed the subject. It’s been bothering me ever since.

          You know how the Holy Spirit works, though. No sooner did I sit down at the computer yesterday to study today’s lessons—I heard them all speak to Felix’s question. So here’s what I might have responded. Maybe this message can help you, or help you to do a better job than I did of sharing some strong and hopeful Good News.

          Christians have for so long hung all our hope for the future on the afterlife. You know how it goes: You suffer through this world of woe, and when you go to heaven, you’ll get your reward of happiness forevermore. When the bad folks die, they’ll go to hell, and they’ll get their punishment then for sure. This kind of “carrot and stick” Christian hope allowed us to justify slavery and all kinds of oppression: Just work hard and be good and obey your masters, and heaven will be yours in the end, we promised. This totally individually-focused “pie in the sky by and by” certainly isn’t what I want to offer Felix. John of Patmos, describing heaven to his own dispirited community in our reading from Revelation, gives us a whole different image. For him, heaven, like earth, draws all of us together.

First of all, Revelation describes God’s presence in a transformed Creation, not in a heavenly realm that is totally divorced from an incomplete, suffering world. When the author of Revelation sees a “new heaven” and a “new earth,” he is not just seeing sky and land, or even future heaven and present earth, he is seeing the totality of all things “seen and unseen,” God’s total creation. What God is making new is not just the material creation and not just the realm of the afterlife. Instead, the things that we know, and the things that are beyond us, are all being changed. God is continually pouring Godself out into the Creation that God loves, creating life from death, order from chaos, over and over and over again.

Here, God’s new creation comes in the form of a city, the New Jerusalem, coming down out of the heavens. Now, we do joke about the “pearly gates,” but do you honestly think about heaven as a city? Shouldn’t heaven instead be like the Garden of Eden, with crystal clear streams bubbling over glistening stones, with the fresh scent of pine needles? Eugene Peterson writes, “Many people want to go to heaven the way they want to go to Florida. They think the weather will be an improvement and the people decent.”[1] By presenting us with a city full of human beings, a mix of all that is good and bad in human civilization, God shows us that “we enter heaven not by escaping what we don’t like, but by the sanctification of the place in which God has placed us.”[2] Let that sink in for a moment. We always look for an escape in God, an escape from daily life, an escape from our troubles, but God keeps showing us that we find God wherever we are, if we let ourselves be transformed.

Listening to some Episcopalians these days, it might sound like this divine city is something that we are supposed to build with our own hands, though—or as one preacher puts it, “by hard work, non-profits, or political action committees.”[3] That idea leaves us discouraged and exhausted as soon as things start going downhill. As Bill Bigum likes to remind us, “That’s no different than the Rotary Club!” No, God’s city is an unearned gift.  In what other Bible passage, besides this one from Revelation, do the heavens open up with a loud voice from God? At the baptism of Jesus in the river Jordan!  Mark writes, “And just as [Jesus] was coming up out of the water, he saw the heavens torn apart and the Spirit descending like a dove on him. And a voice came from heaven, “You are my Son, the Beloved; with you I am well pleased.”[4] The God who conquers Death after being put to death on the Cross by the powers of the City is the God who gives us a new, divine City in which to dwell with one another. God isn’t just blandly “with us,” though, as I told Felix. It’s more than that. God makes a home among mortals. God dwells with us: as God’s Glory dwelling with the people of Israel; as Jesus of Nazareth; and with the Holy Spirit’s intimate presence among us.

The other essential thing that I failed to tell Felix is the defiant character of Christian hope. We are the people who follow a crucified Lord whose command to “love one another” is radical. It entails throwing established customs to the wind in the name of love. Preceding today’s Gospel, Jesus shows his disciples how to love one another by washing their feet, by doing an act of humility that makes no sense in their society, by doing the work of a slave. Says one commentator: “At its best, “new commandment” love is humble enough to kneel and wash … and at the same time, bold enough to protect and connect, overturn conventions, and let the surprising, beautiful glory of God shine through.”[5]

 Even early Christians struggled with the disruptive character of this love. Look at St. Peter in our reading from Acts. He fought the radical character of God’s love until the Spirit showed him in a dream that God’s love in Christ will relativize even the most sacred laws commanded by God in Scripture. The Spirit demands that no one be excluded from Christ’s Body.

The ongoing gift of new creation. The radical defiance inherent in Christian hope. Perhaps I should have witnessed to Felix about how God led this cautious priest to move to Colorado in the middle of a Pandemic to join with a little parish who lives by the breath of the Holy Spirit. I should have told Felix about how St. Ambrose has been reaching out after the devastation of the Marshall Fire to people who didn’t think that they needed us at all. I should have told Felix about the Godly Play and youth teachers who faithfully prepare lessons without knowing whether students will be able to come. I should have told Felix about all the money that Episcopalians from across the country sent to us to help fire survivors, and all the money that our small denomination is now sending to Ukraine and to New Mexico. I should have told him about once-conventional Episcopalians now standing up publicly for beloved community between races, for the rights of women, and for the LBGTQIA community. Perhaps I could have read one of Wendell Berry’s poems to my friend Felix. Berry uses the image of wild geese in flight, mysteriously maintaining their path as if by faith. They fly in “abandon, as in love or sleep.” Could we be like the geese, Berry wonders, praying “to be quiet in heart, and in eye, clear. What we need is here,” he writes.[6] As I look around today at all of you, I agree. What we need is here.



[1] Eugene H. Peterson, Reversed Thunder: The Revelation of John and the Praying Imagination  (New York: HarperCollins, 1988), 174.

[2] Ibid.

[3] Michael Fitzpatrick, “The Home of God is Among Mortals.” Journey with Jesus, May 8, 2022. Found at https://www.journeywithjesus.net/lectionary-essays/current-essay?id=3385.

[4] Mark 1:10-11.

[5] “Love is the Mark.” May 10, 2022. Found at https://www.saltproject.org/progressive-christian-blog/2019/5/14/new-commandment-salts-lectionary-commentary-for-easter-5

[6] Wendell Berry, “What we need is here.” Found at https://www.saltproject.org/progressive-christian-blog/2022/5/10/what-we-need-is-here-by-wendell-berry.