"Do not be afraid; I am the first and the last, and the living one. I was dead, and see, I am alive forever and ever; and I have the keys of Death and of Hades. Now write what you have seen, what is, and what is to take place after this." Rev. 1:17-19.

Saturday, March 24, 2012

A Dangerous Hope: Jesus and The Hunger Games

          “And why do we have a winner?” the ruler of Panem asks rhetorically, in our latest blockbuster movie, The Hunger Games.
If you haven’t heard yet from all of the movie hype, The Hunger Games takes place in a futuristic society created from the rubble of devastating world war. In this dystopian society’s structure, however, we see only an amplification of some of the evils of our present world: money and power are held by only one small part of the population, those who live in luxury in the magnificent Capital. In the Provinces, people are poor and living in misery and toiling to produce the energy and food that keep life in the Capital so pleasant. To keep this system in place, the rulers in the Capital have created a Story, a story fed to the captive provinces through television broadcasts. The Story says that the guilt of war and destruction lie heavily on this people prone to rebellion and strife; and yet, to rise above their guilt, they have the opportunity each year to rally around two strong, innocent young people, gleaned from each province by lot, who will display the honor and strength and charm of the people of their province on live TV. These two youth from each province will come to the Capital for the annual Hunger Games, to be perfected in beauty and wit by coaches and experts, American Idol-style, and then to have the chance to showcase their province’s glory in a fight to the death, as the world watches on TV. Only one contestant can emerge as the winner, returning home in glory. The others will all die. The deadly games do involve strength and wit and strategy, but they and their outcomes are also carefully controlled by the media experts in the Capital, in the way that our popular TV reality shows are controlled and manipulated behind the scenes. So why is there a winner each year of these games? Why doesn’t the Capital reap their annual tribute and then kill all of the contestants in a clear display of dominance and superiority? Because of the power of hope. In answering his rhetorical question, the ruler of Panem concedes that the miserable lives of the people in the Provinces must be nourished by some hope. “A little bit of hope will keep them going, keep them working, keep them playing their part in the system,” he explains. It will nourish them when they are hungry and push them forward when fear or despair threatens to overwhelm them. “But,” adds the wise and cynical ruler, “there is a risk. A little bit of hope is good. Too much hope is dangerous.”
And here we arrive at our Gospel lesson. In John’s Gospel, Jesus has just ridden into Jerusalem on the young donkey and been welcomed with cries of “Hosanna! Blessed is the One who comes in the name of the Lord!” Acclaimed by the crowds like one of the young contestants in the Hunger Games, Jesus has kindled hope in the hearts of the downtrodden Jews from the Roman province of Judea and in the hearts of Greeks alike. “We wish to see Jesus,” some Greeks declare to Philip at the beginning of our Gospel. They all have hope. “Perhaps this is our King?” the Jews wonder. “Perhaps God will speak to us in this man?” the Greeks speculate. They are all waiting on the edges of their seats, expectant, hopeful, encouraged, whispering to one another, passing the word, passing the hope around. They start to dream of a better life, perhaps even a closer relationship with God. They think that, in seeing Jesus, they just might be looking at a winner.
And then Jesus seems to ruin it. He talks about dying and leaving and judgment. He says crazy things like, “Those who love their life lose it, and those who hate their life in this world will keep it for eternal life.” Those do not sound like very hopeful words to me, and I imagine that the Greeks and Jews listening to Jesus’ words might not have found them very hopeful, either. But that is because our vision of hope is too small and weak. We tend to satisfy ourselves with the kind of hope that the organizers of the Hunger Games promote, the kind of hope that will lead us to work harder within the systems that we know, the kind of hope that will keep us docile and happy and playing by the world’s rules. God, however, is offering us the dangerous kind of hope in Jesus Christ, a superabundant kind of hope that must break the old before it can build the new.
Jesus talks about a seed planted in the ground, a seed that must break apart in the dank, dark soil before it can sprout up as a plant that can feed multitudes. We know, of course, the truth of that image in nature. One year I was too lazy to bring in the decorative fall pumpkin on my doorstep. After Thanksgiving, I kicked the broken pieces over behind the bushes and forgot about them. The next spring, from that rotting mess of pumpkin, a vine began to grow. It grew up onto the hedge, flowered, and produced pumpkins in the air, hanging from the top of my tall hedges. Who would have ever thought of wild pumpkins growing untended above my head? That is a hope that would have escaped me entirely. The hope of resurrection is that kind of incredible hope. It breaks our expectations. It looks like death and loss. It surpasses anything that we can conjure up in our own minds. And it changes the world.
In The Hunger Games, there is of course no mention of God or of resurrection. The only assurance to candidates in the Games is a parody of “The Lord be with you:” “May the odds be ever in your favor” the Games’ organizers offer in weak blessing upon the doomed contestants. Nevertheless, the movie shows, despite itself, the results of the kind of dangerous resurrection hope that Jesus offers in our Gospel. First, when Rue, one of the youngest and sweetest contestants, dies, our heroine Katniss Everdeen stops playing the game to place beautiful bunches of Queen Anne’s Lace all around Rue’s small body, lovingly and tearfully bidding farewell to someone whom she was supposed to have fought and killed. By stopping to care for Rue, Katniss puts her own life in danger. She forgets to “love her life,” putting love for another human being above her own survival. And the viewers in the provinces who had been watching on TV in docile hopelessness, react. In Rue’s province, the crowds suddenly riot, bravely attacking police and attempting to destroy the system that holds them captive. Katniss’ self-giving love has suddenly set them free from fear. The authorities in the Capital do put down the riots in triumph, but they are worried. In Katniss' action, a dangerous hope has been unleashed.
At the end of the movie, manipulated by the media who control the games, Katniss and Peeta, her fellow contestant from Province 12, are caught and seemingly bound by the unfair and constantly changing rules. Since the hope of the Games is that there must be only one winner, the two remaining tributes must kill or be killed. Katniss, however, now understands a different kind of hope—the hope that would end her life yet break the deadly authoritarian system that holds all of her people captive. She and Peeta make the choice to break the system—to give up their own lives, to be like the seed in the ground that dies in order to bear fruit. I won’t ruin the movie for you by outlining exactly what happens, but the self-giving love in the actions of Katniss and Peeta succeed in putting a crack in the strong Powers that bind their world and unleashing dangerous hope in their country. Their willingness to die for hope of freedom defeats the rules of the Games themselves, and they live.
We are not contestants in the Hunger Games. Neither are we martyrs for the faith like the courageous Church Father, Ignatius of Antioch, who went to his death proclaiming, “I am God’s grain.” But we are nevertheless called to follow Jesus and to unleash dangerous hope in our world. Last Tuesday in our Lenten discussions, we talked about Justice and about how hard it is for us to take practical steps to “do justice.” We recognized all of the economic and political and social powers that hold us captive, the unfair and frustratingly complex systems that seem to strangle all of our attempts to do good. I believe that one of the reasons that the movie The Hunger Games is so powerful is that we recognize ourselves in the dystopian society of Panem, and we long to be free of the powers that bind us to evil and injustice. To us, and to the crowds in Jerusalem, Jesus answers: If you want to see me, really want to see what my glory can do, you must first follow me to the cross. It is the only way. The structures of this world that hold you captive cannot ultimately be manipulated and stroked and chipped away in easy, comfortable ways. They must be broken open by the divine power of self-giving love. Follow me and watch what dangerous hope can do.
As we sing in one of my favorite Easter hymns: “Now the green blade rises from the buried grain; wheat that in dark earth many days has lain; love lives again, that with the dead has been: love is come again like wheat arising green.” To win is always to love.

Saturday, March 17, 2012

Snakes, tornadoes, and a life-giving Cross


           What if I set today’s Old Testament lesson in a contemporary context? Do you think it might help us understand this strange story about bronze snakes on a pole? Or help us compare them with Christ on the Cross? Well, let’s see. I can imagine a group of refugees from one of the war-torn nations of our globe who might have been resettled in Southern Indiana. Trying to learn English, struggling to find jobs, and getting used to different kinds of food and drink, I imagine that some of them might have complained to their leaders, “Why have you brought us here to die? We can’t make ourselves understood, and we don’t have jobs, and we detest this miserable food.” Then one day in early March, the tornadoes came down from the heavens, whirling like powerful winged angels with swords in each hand (the Hebrew word for snakes, after all, is “seraphim”), angrily attacking the earth and all that is on it. The spinning powers of destruction ripped the refugees’ meager possessions to shreds, sent their trailers flying through the air, and injured and killed their loved ones. Even the strongest of refugees might have felt guilty and afraid. They might have thought that God was judging them. I can imagine them turning to God and saying, “Please, we didn’t mean to complain! Take away this terrible suffering from us!” And God might have said to their leaders:
“Make an image of a tornado out of copper wire—a terrible image filled with death and debris and sharp, fearsome wind gusts—and attach it to a pole and walk around through the center of the destroyed town with it. And whoever has been harmed by one of the twisters has only to look upon this copper image and be healed, with property and health restored.”
What silliness, we might say to this story! First of all, God doesn’t send tornadoes to punish poor, homesick refugees. Second of all, what kind of primitive, magical view of religion would portray someone looking at a model of destruction in order to be healed? Sure, they tell those of us who are afraid of spiders to stick our hands in a jar of them in order to lose our fear, so I suppose that there is something to be said for looking the thing that we fear squarely in the face. But wouldn’t wrapping the fearsome power of the tornado in copper wire make of it an idol, a man-made image that heals in God’s place?
I don’t think that I can justify either the biblical story of Moses and the serpents or my modern story about the tornadoes. They are both full of some ancient assumptions about God and magic that I no longer hold. But what about John’s use of that image to talk about Jesus Christ? “And just as Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness,” writes John, “so must the Son of Man be lifted up, that whoever believes in him may have eternal life.” How do we human beings, some cheerful, some grumbling, seeking refuge from the hurts and disasters of this world, look up at God lifted high on a cross and thereby grasp eternal life?
Imagine that you are one of those refugees who just lost all of your possessions in that tornado. You have already given up so much, already endured so many losses. You are strong, but as you lie there in the rubble, you might start to feel pretty sorry for yourself, and rightly so. You remember how you have been chased from your country by cruel, murderous soldiers who hate you only because of the tribe in which you were born; you think about your parents’ house and the beautiful fields that you were forced to leave in enemy hands. You feel like the utter victim that you are, a victim of colonialism and poverty and cruel, power-hungry men. You look up with empty, victim-eyes at the copper tornado being brought through the streets of your town and the emptiness fills your soul. You feel hopeless, abandoned and punished by God. “God should be punishing my oppressors,” you cry, and your hopelessness is ringed with hatred. You call down God’s judgment on your enemies. Suddenly, though, you look up, and the copper tornado image has become God …. God, suffering like you are, bloody and nailed to a cross, and you are confused.
“How did Almighty God wind up on that cross?” you might wonder. Your fevered brain wanders back to memories of that frail old man whose food rations you stole at the refugee camp to feed your hungry little brother. You remember how you lied to the authorities to get some of the paperwork that you needed to get to this country. You see the family who was just beneath you on the list, huddled and weeping in the dust. You remember how, when the winds came this day, you ran for cover without helping along the elderly couple who lived next door to you. You remember grumbling about the hardships of life in your new country, and you remember the terrifying winds that came right afterwards. Your empty eyes begin to fill with the tears of the oppressor, guilty in so many ways of making others into victims, too. “If I call down God’s judgment on my oppressors, then God is going to have to judge me, too,” you realize. “Wasn’t I yelling, ‘Crucify him!’ when they were condemning Jesus to die? Woe is me, I am covered in guilt and deserving of punishment.”
If a refugee lying in the street amid the rubble of his life is both victim and oppressor, are not we comfortably cosseted Christians the same? We too can be victims in many ways, but, at the same time, we are oppressors, the constant creator of new victims, caught up in a whirlwind of destructive systems that break apart everything that we build in this world. We bully and are bullied; we have things taken from us, and we take more than we need in return; we hurt, while our very lifestyle hurts someone else living thousands of miles away. Left to our own judging devices, or left in the hands of a judging God, we have no hope. If God is looking down on each of us from some cloud and punishing the oppressors, then we are all doomed.
The good news--the wonderful news--is that, despite what we hear sometimes from the televangelists, we do not have a condemning God. It says so right here in our Gospel lesson. We have a God who loves the world, who saves the world, who refuses to condemn the world. God loves the whole of this swirling, whirling, broken and beautiful world. God’s light shines wherever it can in this world and seeks to transform the dark, closed off places, not to destroy them. God the Father chooses not to judge the world. Instead, God sends God’s Son into the midst of it.
Jesus is a human being who, like us, lived in the broken systems of our world. As God, though, he was not a part of those systems. Jesus is the only one who oppressed no one, yet he was definitely oppressed. Without deserving it, he was nailed to a Cross to die a shameful and painful death. Jesus is the only perfect victim. It sometimes sounds as if we think that God punished Jesus just to fill some kind of punishment requirement, but why would a loving God do that? Jesus had to suffer not for some abstract reason but because real, live individuals lie in fields torn up by tornadoes and hatred. God knows that I cannot look into Jesus’ suffering eyes without looking into the eyes of each of my victims and seeing them look back at me. God knows that I cannot look into Jesus’ suffering eyes without asking forgiveness of all those whom I oppress, without acknowledging that my only hope is in seeing Jesus in those whom I have condemned. When we look into Jesus’ suffering eyes and see both God’s love for the oppressors and our victims’ pain looking back at us, then we are covered in divine grace. If we trust that the Cross is not the last word, if we trust that the end of Jesus’ story is new life and resurrection and the defeat of all of the crosses in our world, then we know that there is hope beyond our destructiveness. Faith is trust in this new life that transcends the death-dealing bonds of victims and oppressors.[1]
Lying on our backs and looking up at the Son of Man lifted up on the Cross, we are able to rise from the rubble, free from judging and from guilt. That is the healing boost that we need. We can rise to begin to make amends for the wrongs that we have done and to reach out to strangers and former enemies. We can put one foot in front of the other because we know that suffering is “embedded in an inexhaustible life” full of resources and possibilities beyond those that we can see.[2] On this St. Patrick’s Day weekend, I am reminded of the ancient Celtic prayer that we call the Breastplate of St. Patrick. Like our Gospel lesson, it names the sacredness of God’s beloved Creation; it names the swirling powers and broken relationships that hold us captive in this world; and it uses the imagery of a soul “binding” Christ to itself as a strong armor of protection.
Christ be with me, Christ within me,
Christ behind me, Christ before me,
Christ beside me, Christ to win me,
Christ to comfort and restore me,
Christ beneath me, Christ above me,
Christ in quiet, Christ in danger,
Christ in hearts of all that love me,
Christ in mouth of friend and stranger.

Living such lives “in Christ” each day, is the eternal life found in Christ lifted up, like the serpent in the wilderness, perfect victim and only judge.


[1]This whole victim/ oppressor reflection is based on the discussion inRowan Williams’ book, Resurrection, p. 3-21.
[2]Ibid., 17-18.

Saturday, March 10, 2012

How did our cookies wind up on the floor?


         If God, incarnate in Jesus Christ, were to show up today at St. Thomas, what tables would he turn? Would he approach the Altar to spill out the contents of our offering plates from their presumptuous perch next to his Body and Blood? Would he let Buck out of his crate to run loose in the Fellowship Hall, destroying coffee hour goodies right and left? Surely God wouldn’t find a cause for righteous anger with this House of God? Our nice little Christian family on Westport Road is certainly not a “marketplace.” We’re not breaking any big rules, like those corrupt and money-grubbing merchants in the Temple ….?
          Before we let ourselves off of the hook so easily, let’s take a look at our Gospel lesson. First, the merchants in the Temple are not the bad guys that we usually imagine them to be in this story. They are merely doing the business that allows the system of Temple sacrifice—the worship ordained by God at that time—to run smoothly. Their job is to provide pilgrims with unblemished animals for sacrifice, as required by scripture, and to change  coins tainted with the idolatrous image of pagan emperors for pure ones worthy of an offering to God. John, unlike the other Gospel writers, does not say that there is any corruption or sacrilege in these merchants’ dealings. As merchants and onlookers watch the pure coins mix with the impure coins on the floor, and the freed doves dirty the tables, and the loose cattle trample holy things, they must have been confused by Jesus’ zeal, wondering why on earth he is so disapproving of what he sees, why he wants to bring chaos into the midst of their safely ordered lives.
Secondly, we must notice that this is not just a story about Jesus’ human side losing his cool and justifying our own righteous anger. John carefully places this story at the beginning of his Gospel, rather than at the end, as do Matthew, Mark, and Luke. It follows closely upon John the Baptist’s testimony that he is the one who “prepares the way of the Lord,” and it therefore serves as a purposeful illustration of the words of the prophet Malachi: “See I am sending my messenger to prepare the way before me, and the Lord whom you seek will suddenly come to his temple.” John’s Jewish readers know, too, the words of the prophet Zecharia who cries out that, when the Day of Judgment comes, “there shall no longer be traders in the house of the Lord of hosts.” With all of these Old Testament allusions, John is telling us that, in coming to set things right in the Temple, Jesus is appearing among us as God, the Lord of Hosts. His displeasure at what is going on in the Temple is not a display of human anger but is instead a sign of God’s mysterious judgment. God, present in Jesus, is here for change that we don’t comprehend, our story tells us. God is here to intervene, to turn tables, to shake up our human notions of holy and unholy, pure and impure, wise and foolish, abundant and scarce.
          Like the Jews bringing their sacrifices to the Temple, we too long for the presence of God. We thirst for it; we plead for it. We search the heavens and the earth for a glimpse of it. We come to church in hopes of touching it, if only for a moment. But while God’s presence can soothe our hearts and center our souls, it sure can be a threat to our institutions and to any of our boxed-in thoughts and ways. When God meets up with rigid human customs of any kind, or with proud and certain human wisdom, the furniture starts to fly and the coins get thrown all over the floor. Paul reminds us in our Epistle today that it is written: “I will destroy the wisdom of the wise, and the discernment of the discerning I will thwart.” We ask God to show us the wise answers, and we get darkness and folly. We ask God to vindicate our cause, to shore up our cherished institutions, and we get a Cross.
          In our churches, we ask for God’s presence, but do we realize what we are asking for? As Annie Dillard writes in her famous passage on encounters with God: “The churches are children playing on the floor with their chemistry sets, mixing up a batch of TNT to kill a Sunday morning.”[1] When God arrives, we too should expect the kind of change and disruption that those merchants experienced in the courts of the Temple. We experience not an angry God, a God bent on punishment, but we experience a strange God, a God whose wisdom is not our own, a God whose light can appear as darkness. Jesus, writes Rowan Williams, “stands for [this] strangeness of God. He is the ‘ray of darkness’ in the world of our religious fantasy. He is that which interrupts and disturbs and remakes the world.”[2]
          Interrupts, disturbs, and remakes. That is what Jesus does in the Temple. He interrupts the carefully regulated program; he disturbs the deeply held notions of God’s people; and he remakes the grand Temple built of human hands. Through the darkness of his suffering, crucifixion, and death, he replaces the Temple with his risen body, of which we are all a part and in which we are all made new. The problem is that, in this world, we are never finished with transformation. God must keep coming; the Spirit must keep molding us; Jesus must keep shaking us out of the ruts that we fall into so easily. I’m sure that each of us could think of many ways in which God molds and remakes our lives, but I was struck this week with Jesus’ presence turning over some tables in our Fellowship Hall…!
At our Lenten Book Study on Tuesday, we began with a discussion of the practice of Christian hospitality, as described in Diana Butler Bass’s book, Christianity for the Rest of Us. We started out, as you can imagine, congratulating ourselves. “Oh, hospitality is one of our strengths at St. Thomas,” we affirmed. We are friendly to newcomers; we organize a terrific coffee hour; new members tell us all the time that our friendliness is what made them stay among us. Hospitality, though, is defined by Bass as “the creation of a free space where strangers become friends.” It is a welcome that mirrors God’s open-armed acceptance of every human being, no matter how strange or unappealing they seem to us. “Who then are the strangers in, around, or near us?” we asked one another in our discussion. Let’s see … Surely they don’t include the homeless people who want to sleep in our field or Meditation Garden? Or the neighbors whose dogs use our grounds for a bathroom and whose cars sit for weeks in our parking lot? Or the preschool who rents our downstairs space and uses our Fellowship Hall and always seems to need something from us, without responding in kind? Wait--Do we really show God’s open-armed hospitality to all of them? Do we even want to do that? All of a sudden, we looked around, and low and behold, our metaphorical round white tables were lying askew; the plastic tablecloths were ripped in two, and the plates of cookies were scattered all over the floor. We gazed despondently at one another and felt judged and found wanting. I really didn’t know what to say.
          After reading today’s Gospel, I better understood. I also checked out a chapter on hospitality in Scott Bader-Saye’s book, Following Jesus in a Culture of Fear. He explains that we experience Christian community as a safe, fenced-in area—as a family in whose presence we can relax the vigilance that we are forced to maintain in the rest of our lives in a big, scary world. He talks about a parish that described itself as very hospitable, but in which newcomers weren’t integrated into the life of the place until they took the time and initiative to “get to know us and how we do things.”[3] He describes church growth workshops in which “cost-effective strategies” are promoted, in which leaders look at those to be welcomed from the point of view of pledging units, rather than welcoming everyone, without an eye toward the return. In understanding our hospitality in this way, we are like the merchants blithely going about their business on the Temple grounds.
          Real hospitality, however, can only be offered by unbounded communities centered around Jesus Christ, communities that are constantly being interrupted, disturbed, and remade. If we’re going to beg Jesus to come into our midst, we need to be ready for him to break up our cozy chatting and to mess up our safe circles, to introduce people that we don’t like or understand and to leave us feeling uncomfortable and unsafe. When God comes, in answer to our prayers, let’s not waste time cleaning up after him. Let’s give thanks for the divine interruption and turn our arms outward to welcome—to truly welcome—the changed life that he brings.


[1] Annie Dillard, Teaching a Stone to Talk: Expeditions and Encounters (London, 1984), 41.
[2] Rowan Williams, A Ray of Darkness (Cambridge, MA: Cowley Publications), 103.
[3] Scott Bader-Saye, Following Jesus in a Culture of Fear (Brazos Press, 2007), 104.

Saturday, March 3, 2012

Goggles, lenses, and life

          Have you heard about Google Goggles yet? I read last week that the computer company, Google, is not far from producing a prototype of special glasses whose lenses are a mini computer screen: put them on, look at something, and nod your head … and maps, weather, and all of the possibilities of the Internet will appear just inches from your eyeball.[1] So you don’t know who that person is who waves to you at the Mall? Just look into the screen of your glasses where face-recognition software will tell you his name! Quarreling with your spouse about when some Louisville landmark was built? Google the answer by talking to your glasses! Lost in a strange city? The route could be right before your eyes. I wonder how it will be when such information technology is literally the lens through which we see the world … when we can instantly know a multitude of facts about everything that we see … when, as one poet writes about this phenomenon, “the actual world [is] merely the consequence of the search terms I supply?”[2] My fear is that this technology will only reinforce our tendency to bury ourselves in facts and to construct a safe reality in which to hide ourselves.
          In today’s Gospel lesson, the Apostle Peter is the first to recognize Jesus as the Messiah, the Anointed One of God. Even without access to Wikipedia, Peter’s mind is full of knowledge about the Messiah: he knows that the Messiah is to be a great king like King David, that he will restore the sovereignty and dignity of Israel, that he will crush the Roman oppression, that he will bring peace and prosperity to the land. When Peter names Jesus as the Messiah, the trusty Goggles of the kings and prophets of Israel tell him exactly what to expect. Then, of course, Jesus begins to teach that he is instead a Messiah who is going to undergo great suffering and total rejection and even death—the opposite of what Peter sees through his lenses. No wonder he begins to argue and protest.
          I understand Peter’s reaction, because I do exactly the same thing. When confronted with new possibilities, my automatic response is to gather up as much knowledge about what is going to happen as possible, so that I can begin to construct a safe worldview that will reassure me of smooth outcomes. Before moving to a new place, I would scour the Internet to find information about that city until I get a nice, fact-lined image of the future in which I can feel secure. When I or a loved-one have any strange ache or pain, I retreat to the computer to search for information on what that new complaint could be, as if becoming versed in symptoms, diagnoses, and scientific facts could shore me up against destruction. When I was a young mother-to-be, I bought every baby book that I could lay my hands on and read frantically, as if the knowledge that I could absorb about pregnancy and babies would keep me and my child safe. If God had broken into my rosy vision, though, with images of the miscarriages that I would have, the times my children would be close to death, the scares that they would dump on me as teenagers, then I would have protested in horror, “No, that can’t be, not my babies! My children will live ordered, predictable lives just like it says in this book!” We human beings don’t need Google-goggles to construct fact-based forts in the face of an unknown future.
Jesus, however, is not interested in the “human things” that our knowledge of facts and predicted outcomes can create. Jesus opens up a future—and a present—that invite us to look into the depths of God, rather than into the flat screens of our human perceptions. In order to follow Jesus on the path to Life, we must shed our knowledge-soaked lenses and the perceptions of self and world that they create. The only Goggles that we need for that kind of life are the lenses of Scripture, those powerful glasses that fit on every human face and allow us to read God and our world together.[3] When worn correctly, our Scripture Goggles don’t fill us with more information, predictions, and facts. They fill us with a common story that gives a name to hope and thereby renames who we are.
          “If any want to become my followers, let them deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me,” Jesus calls out to us. We often tend to hear these words as a call to live ascetic lives, lives without earthly pleasures, barren lives burdened by some misfortune or tragedy that God expects us to haul glumly around on our backs. My father suffered paralysis from a stroke at a fairly young age, and I still remember hearing my mother tell her friends resignedly, with great sadness, “Well, I guess his illness is just the cross that I have to bear …” When a pastor friend told me that my mother was wrong in her assessment, that God did not place that cross on her, I remember being confused, for I could see that cross on her slumping back just as plain as day. My pastor friend was right, though. The word that we translate as “deny” in this verse really means to “renounce.” Jesus is not asking us to deny ourselves the joy and beauty of life. He is actually asking something even more difficult: he is asking us to “renounce ourselves,” to “disown ourselves,” as clearly as Peter disowned Jesus around the fire when the cock crowed three times.[4] He is asking us to take off the glasses of self through which we have been structuring our futures and to walk blindly forward, holding only onto God’s hand.
Moreover, when Jesus asks us to carry our cross, he is not referring to one of the burdens--some heavier than others--that we as human beings all carry throughout our mortal lives: sickness, loneliness, and, yes, the devastation caused by natural disasters such as yesterday’s terrible tornadoes. A cross is not just a heavy load—it is a shameful instrument of execution meant for guilty slaves and criminals. To carry my cross is to carry all that condemns me, all of the unpleasantness of my humanity, including my death, that I normally try to avoid seeing or touching. “Take off your protective goggles,” Jesus says, “yet take up your sin, your human fragility, your human brokenness, your shame, your mortality—all those things that you can’t bear to see within yourselves—and follow me. For I will show you that—with God--death can be life, and loss can be gain.”
We need to take off our real and metaphorical “Google-goggles,” those that are computer-enhanced and those that we cultivate in our souls, in order to look directly at our fragile mortality and at the all-encompassing Love of God surrounding it. A friend of mine just had a granddaughter who was born very premature—at 26 weeks. As I looked at her in the NICU, weighing only a pound and a half, small enough to be held in the palm of her father’s hand, completely covered in tubes and bandages, struggling to breathe, the miraculous fragility of human life never seemed more evident. If I had had a pair of those Google-Goggles, I could have covered over my discomfort by accessing reams of information about medical procedures, statistics about survival rates, and reports of similar babies who have thrived. But in so doing, I would have missed the precious moment where her painfully-obvious mortality reached out to mine, where I realized that we both are but a breath away from death, we both are fragile creatures resting in God’s hands, we both share the victory of the Cross—the victory that says that life is stronger than death, and that love is stronger than loss, and that forgiveness is stronger than any failure. Strangely, in opening myself to watch life struggle within this baby’s beautifully fragile limbs, I am able to renounce the anxious grasp over my own life … and thereby to live. Such is Jesus’ desire for those who choose to follow him. “For those who want to save their life will lose it, and those who lose their life for my sake, and for the sake of the Good News, will save it.”


[1] Steve Henn, “Google Goggles,” found at http://www.npr.org/blogs/alltechconsidered/2012/02/24/147364732/googles-goggles-is-the-future-right-before-our-eyes.
[2] Craig Morgan Teicher
[3] Thank you, John Calvin!
[4] Morna D. Hooker, The Gospel According to St. Mark, 208.